A Woman, Thinking

H&H: Au Revior, 2012

Healing & HeartPoppy Lochridge1 Comment

Borrowing Havi's skipping stones to say farewell to 2012 - it wasn't as hard as 2011, but it was very much a year of recovery. What do I want to remember about 2012? That this was the year when I stood up for people who needed me to stand up for them. And that I made it through the year with grace and integrity, imperfect but not giving up on my stuff.

What was hard about 2012? Single-handedly running the Yeti Appreciation Society (yes, it's a metaphor) The skidding-off-the-tracks of a longstanding friendship due to a major disagreement Money problems Abandoning nearly all of my self-care practices except as emergency techniques when things turned hard.

What wisdom do I want to take with me from 2012? It feels good to stand up for someone who can’t stand up for themselves, even when it’s hard. Sloooooooow down - it feels delicious.

What memories do I want to keep from 2012? The memory of seeing “my” girls strong, healthy, and happy. The feeling of a long, slow stretch untangling my tension. The trust and love of a small child’s hand slipping into mine.

What worked? Intentional slow stretching and loving my body enough to give it that. Being clear about what I feel and need. Permission to write every day about what’s on my mind.

What might I try next time? Something to remind and encourage myself to keep up the yoga/meditation/communication/self-care practices in the good AND hard. Open to suggestions on this.

Creating space between the Me who is the chief officer of the Yeti Appreciation Society and the Me who Does Things that Need Doing. This might be temporal space or different costumes and titles, or ???

What do I wish for 2013? Less drama Less anger More sparkle More love