Coffee and Conversation
I am inspired by this post at Lazy Day Project
If we were having coffee I would tell you that I am exhausted. I am carrying the weight of too many things, and I can’t set down the things I want to set down, and I don’t want to set down the things I can. The weekly and monthly budgeting, meal planning, bill paying, and grocery shopping are all WORK, and I am yearning for a break.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I’m worried about the committees I am serving on, that they’re not meeting often enough, even though I’m actually a little relieved that I don’t have to juggle a lot of meetings in addition to the rest of my schedule.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I’m dreading Christmas this year, and wish I could just fast-forward to New Years instead. My husband’s been out of work for 9 months now, meaning we’ve gone 7 or 8 months without any additional income. He’s looking, yes, but it’s hard and it’s slow and the more weeks he spends without a job, the less appealing he’s going to be to a potential employer. It’s frustrating and sad and honestly, a little disgusting that this is true, that someone who is unemployed is less employable the longer they remain out of the job market.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I’m scared. We’re still paying the credit card bill from last Christmas - which I had planned to have done by now, but losing that second income broke that plan. There are children in my life that I don’t want to disappoint - and I think I may have to disappoint them. There are adults in my life that I want to love with gifts - Gift-Giving is my Love Language - and I can’t this year. I fear that needing to scale back will make my loves feel unloved.
How to play along
Because safety is a core value for me, I am asking that comments in this space avoid all the ugly things: shame, blame, judgement. I am asking that disagreement and discussion be polite, respectful, generous, and open to vulnerability.
Because community is healthy behavior, I welcome you to comment, to share your thoughts and responses and discuss this with empathy with me and with each other.
